“I WILL BLESS THE LORD AT ALL TIMES HIS PRAISES SHALL CONTINUALLY BE IN MY MOUTH. PSALMS 34:1
HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND MY COUSIN D WHO WERE BORN 2 DAYS APART IN THE SAME YEAR BY BROTHERS (OUR DADS)! UNFORTUNATELY HE PASSED 3 YEARS AGO I MISS HIM SOOOO MUCH!!! I LOVE YOU BBRUZ, (BIG BRO CUZ) AND I MISS TALKIN’ TO YOU, I’M GLAD I GOT THE CHANCE TO SPEAK TO HIM ABOUT JESUS AND HIS LOVE AND MERCY HE HAS FOR HIM, I KNOW I’LL SEE HIM AGAIN IN HEAVEN! I CAN’T WAIT!!!
Hey my PEEPS, I pray all is well and ya’ll had a blessed Christmas and Happy New Year so far, I’m LIVIN MY LIFE ACCORDING TO GOD’S WORD TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITIES, MISTAKES AND ALL, and I’m GREAT! I’m determined to speak more about Jesus to people I see but only when the Spirit leads me because if I go off HALF COCKED I can mess up a potential soul winning opportunity and I don’t want that on my conscience for the rest of my life. I’m planning on fasting this new year for my family, we’re still divided so I need help from the Lord to bring us back together. My child is going through depression from lack of her father’s protection and love since she was born, and for my husband who’s still all into his needs and the dog’s needs before mine, I knew he was self absorbed before we married, it’s a symptom of drug and alcohol abuse in the past. He’s 19 years sober and clean, I’M SO PROUD OF HIM, we attended a meeting the evening of his 19th year and I was given the honor of presenting him with his 19 year coin along with a short speech of how proud I am of him and his hard work at sponsoring others each week to stay clean from their addictions. It was a BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCE AND I WAS HONORED TO BE APART OF THE EVENT, I wasn’t there at the beginning of his journey to sobriety, but I am now and I will always be here to support him no matter what!!
Don’t get me wrong, just because I’m understanding with him, I’M NOT ALWAYS PATIENT!! He has made me soooo angry with his self absorption here as of late I’ve had to LITERALLY scream on my knees in prayer to the Lord begging His help in strengthening my patience with my husband so that I won’t say something I CAN’T TAKE BACK! I know my mouth, I can cut you with words with dry, wry, sarcasm and not think twice about hurting your feelings, BUT I’M NOT THAT PERSON ANYMORE THE LORD IS WORKING ON ME WITH THIS ISSUE, I’m thankful for His patience with me. My husband knows how to push my buttons then turn around and cry VICTIM once I get started, it drives me nuts so I MUST GO ON A FAST TO RID MY HUSBAND OF THIS NONSENSE ONCE AND FOR ALL!! Fasting ever so often is beneficial and essential for personal and spiritual growth, along with prayer it can build your faith and resolve to be able to handle trials and tribulations coming your way DAILY!
I’m also determined to get custody of my child back from her father, he lied to get her and now it’s my time to get her back with me, he’s been promising to give her to me for the past 3 years but never followed through, I’m tired of him lying to me and neglecting our daughter, he allows his wife to mistreat her, call her dumb, stupid, nasty, b***h, call me every name in the book in front of her, he co-signs every negative word spoken about me in front of our daughter so when she decided to defend me, he punishes her by taking ALL PRIVILEGES AWAY INDEFINITELY (which usually mean 2 months) whereas the other kids younger than she get away with EVERYTHING and NOT PUNISHED! My child has a lot of resentment towards her dad, a lot of anger too, right before Christmas she went OFF ON ME yelling and cursing, calling me a F-ING B***H, she hates me, she wants to live with friends because she don’t want to live with her dad anymore, she hates him too, etc.. I just stood there AND TOOK IT WITHOUT SAYING A WORD because I knew where the pain and anger was coming from. I hated to be her punching bag but it was necessary, she apologized shortly afterwards and now we’re good to go!!
I’m setting her up for counseling once she comes home, I can’t do much now since she lives and hour away from me, I have to bide my time, be patient, trust God and everything will work out for OUR good . My family is still HATIN’ on me and my husband(THE EVIL RICH WHITE MAN TRUMP SUPPORTER) LOL, they obviously didn’t learn anything from my cousin’s death because we’re still as divided as ever and there is no end in sight for reconciliation! The HAVES will never help the HAVE NOTS, THE HAVE NOTS will help their fellow HAVE NOTS even if they give them their last dime. The HAVES claimed the reason they didn’t attend my wedding was because they don’t travel long distance anymore, AND YET they’ve traveled last year to FLORIDA, ATLANTA, ALABAMA, THE BAHAMAS, SOUTH CAROLINA, you know, ALL THE STATES AND COUNTRIES THAT ARE BASED ACROSS THE STREET FROM MY FAMILY MEMBERS HOMES, (LOL) AND YET, THEY DON’T TRAVEL!! GO FIGURE
I love my family, I hate the division in the family and I want to do my part in bringing us back together so we can focus on winning souls for the Lord with our gifts of ministering and evangelism the Lord has blessed us with and that only comes through PRAYER AND FASTING.
Thank you to all my new followers, please feel free to spread my blog to others, I welcome any input you might have and I’m also grateful to ALL MY PREVIOUS/CURRENT FOLLOWERS and pray God’s blessings on you throughout the new year and beyond. LET THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND THE MEDITATION OF MY HEART BE ACCEPTABLE IN THY SIGHT, OH LORD MY STRENGTH AND MY REDEEMER. BE BLESSED ALL DAY EVERY DAY